It’s taken me a while to figure out what I wanted my intent and focus to be for the first month of 2019… I wrote about my word here.
As I have navigated the beautiful battlefield of social media over the holidays, I’ve noticed how much we are driven by what we ‘should’ present, feel, be doing instead of what we might actually ‘WANT’ to do, feel to present.
Some days I don’t feel like writing, posting what I’m up to or sharing the inner workings of creativity… I just really feel like living it, walking the path and not ‘achieving’ as such – living calmly in the white space. and feeling those feelings of discomfort as and when they arise.
I’m definitely a glass 3/4 full type of gal and mostly all as sparkly as it looks in life (Dave often says to me ‘How are you so happy in the mornings…!”) but of course life is not always sparkly, sometimes life throws in so many dark curve balls I don’t feel compelled to ‘be’ what I have created on social media and I don’t want to tell the internet what’s up…
I guess this intent kind of follows on from my Social Media Sass experiment in lots of ways and I’m still trying to work out how much energy I expand into my online presence and if it’s really a reciprocal exchange of energy….
A lot of my creative clients describe socials as ‘toxic’ and I’ve always found them to be mostly inspiring but feel I spend a little longer than I’d like there and I’ve actually grown to not need that distraction now…
Part of it I think is last year, I felt lonely in lots of ways – I missed my ‘soul friends‘ and longed to meet some closer to where we’ve made our new home – it took a while but well WOW they ALL walked in at once… some of them had actually been there for months but I hadn’t picked up my head enough to notice…I guess I’d got so used to them not being there…
So…for January I want to swim in authenticity and get comfortable there… with the whole hearted intent to allow more magick to show up and guide my way…
It’s going to be a slow start to the month and that’s more than ok – I’ll write more about soon and my 2019 Workbook isn’t quite ready but when it is I’ll send it out via my mailing list if you’d like a copy sign up here… I’m not sure what will spill out from My Authentic January but I’m looking forward to the growth!
“The world rests in the night. Trees, mountains, fields, and faces are released from the prison of shape and the burden of exposure.
Each thing creeps back into its own nature within the shelter of the dark. Darkness is the ancient womb.
Nighttime is womb-time. Our souls come out to play. The darkness absolves everything; the struggle for identity and impression falls away. We rest in the night.”
John O’Donohue